Surprise Home

SO I went home this past weekend to surprise my cousin Parth for his 18th birthday, to surprise Heidi for her 19th birthday, to surprise my sister because I missed her, and to surprise A$ because it's always nice to surprise (:

AND IT FELT SOOOOOO GEWD
to go home
to be hugged by my mom
to get spicy with cell
to jerk with Hersh
to be a BAMF with Camille
to be held

TO BE LOVED FOR BEING ME.

Oh gosh it was such a relief to be myself.

Thursday 11/5:
-Flew home
-Dad picked me up and I went home to an eager Naiya and a surprised bruva
-Talked about being an Aunt!
-Surprised A$
"No way. You're not here."
-Surprised Parth and watched The Office (:
-BHUA love!!
-Went back home to sleep

Friday 11/6:
-Leg laser OUCH
-Surprised Heidi Diaz and ate her cookie cake nom nom nom
-Coco and the eggs
-Got spicy with cell and kanika
-Pick Up Stix (HOUSE CHICKEN)
-JUST HAD TO INSIST TO PAY, didn't you?
-Heidi's dance show (surprised Audrey<3)
Audrey Richards Loves having awesome friends like Karina Chadha. she is no joke, one of the coolest people of this planet! Girl, you never fail to MAKE MY NIGHT ♥

you know what i love about you? That you will listen and be totally understanding even if you dont always agree with what i believe in or what my opinions are. It still amazes me how cool you can be. no joke. the coolest.
Thank you for tonight , i ♥ you

SHE FELL FOR ME AAHAHAHAHA
-In N Out
-Boondock Saints 2: All Saints Day
AMAZING
-Hold me tight (:
melted crunch bars and string cheese.
falling in a pond.




Saturday 11/7:
-LASER LASER LASER OUCH OUCH OUCH
-Lunch with Eliseo (:
fairies and revelations.
-PINKBERRY nom nom nom
-Chicken Day/Pop with A$, cell and Kanika
-Roopak's Birthday Party







-She thought she was a lesbian!

-Fire Place<3

Sunday 11/8:


Parting is such sweet sorrow

MISSED MY FLIGHT BUT NOW I'M BACK IN DAVIS.
Thank JEEBUS that Michelle could pick me up!
Two bugs in my room :(



2.5 more weeks and I am back home!!

Happy Birthday Parth!

Ooooo you're legal! hahaha

imy.

Monster Mash/Sloth

This makes me giggle (:




Oh Becca....I'm hideous but this is HILARIOUS:

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Kidney shape

I can't even begin to tell you how amazing this past weekend was.
I can't even begin to tell you how happy I was.
I can't even begin to tell you how miserable I am now.


Oct 9th at approximately 1pm.



Today is officially the mark for 8 months.

Define "Us"

duh.

Study finds

http://www.washingtonpost.com/wp-dyn/content/article/2006/05/25/AR2006052501729.html





omgosh omgosh omgosh!

brownies anyone?

Ring the alarm, I've been through this too long...

It figures that during the brief 45 minute gap that I have during the week (where I decided to take a nap) there was a fire alarm.
That alarm made the halls ring and it reverberated through my whole body. Goshdamn it hurt.
I'm super sore because my fierce Abs teacher can make me do 1000 ab workouts in 35 minutes AND my bootcamp teacher likes us to hurt by doing "Nasties" and diamond push-ups.


ohhhhh gosh I feel like I'm falling behind even though I'm keeping up.

One miss Rachel De Jesus has been my saviorrrrr
I'd crash and burn if it weren't for her! surrr-ee-us-lee

Never Been Kissed and Juno

[9/29/09 1:52:06 AM]: That thing, that moment, when you kiss someone and everything around becomes hazy and the only thing in focus is you and this person and you realize that that person is the only person that you're supposed to kiss for the rest of your life, and for one moment you get this amazing gift and you want to laugh and you want to cry because you feel so lucky that you found it and so scared that that it will go away all at the same time.


[9/29/09 1:53:44 AM]: Look, in my opinion, the best thing you can do is find a person who loves you for exactly what you are. Good mood, bad mood, ugly, pretty, handsome, what have you, the right person is still going to think the sun shines out your ass. That's the kind of person that's worth sticking with.



GETTING HAZY LEGALLY = YOU FOUND THE RIGHT ONE

k: you're crazy
a: about you
k: ooo smooth one. jackass.

"I was hiding under your porch because I love you"

Last night I watched Up! with Rachel and it's honestly one of the best movies I've seen in a long time.
Kevin is amazingggg and Dug melted my heart.


Last night was the first time I've been genuinely happy in a long time. Lets just say that things haven't been the best lately.

I hope to find love as strong as theirs<3

Better Together

There's no combination of words
I could put on the back of a postcard
No song that I could sing
But I can try for your heart,
our dreams, and they are made out of real things
like a shoebox of photographs
with sepia-toned loving
Love is the answer
at least for most of the questions in my heart, like
Why are we here? And where do we go?
And how come it's so hard?
It's not always easy and
sometimes life can be deceiving
I'll tell you one thing, it's always better when we're together

Mmmm, It's always better when we're together
Yeah we'll look at the stars and we're together
Well, it's always better when we're together
Yeah it's always better when we're together

And all of these moments
just might find their way into my dreams tonight,
But I know that they’ll be gone
when the morning light sings
and brings new things
for tomorrow night you see
that they’ll be gone too,
too many things I have to do
But if all of these dreams might find their way
into my day to day scene
I'd be under the impression
i was somewhere in between
With only two,
Just me and you,
Not so many things we got to do
or places we got to be
We'll sit beneath the mango tree, now,

Yeah It's always better when we're together
Mmmm, we're somewhere in between together
Well, it's always better when we're together
Yeah, it's always better when we're together

[MmmMmmmmMmm, Mmm MMmmM]

I believe in memories
they look so, so pretty when I sleep
Hey now, and when I wake up,
you look so pretty sleeping next to me
But there is not enough time,
There is no, no song I could sing
and there is no combination of words I could say
but I will still tell you one thing
We're Better together







I feel more at night.
I seriously hate that I'm back to the whole "not-sleeping" thing

Back in Norcal

and it hurts


but im handling it a lot better than i thought i would

1234/Best I Ever Had

2:06
2:25
3:06

Cloud 9

MY ENTIRE SUMMER

has consisted of work and staying at home.

oh and this:



along with:





So it's only been wasted in the social sense

Jill Scott was on to something....

You love me especially different every time
You keep me on my feet happily excited
By your cologne, your hands, your smile, your intelligence
You woo me, you court me, you tease me, you please me
You school me, give me some things to think about
Ignite me, you invite me, you co-write me, you love me, you like me
You incite me to chorus, ooh
Ooh...

You love me especially different every time
You keep me on my feet happily excited
By your cologne, your hands, your smile, your intelligence
You woo me, you court me, you tease me, you please me
You school me, give me things to think about
Invite me, you ignite me, co-write me, you love me, you like me
Incite me to chorus
La, la, la...
Da, da, da...
Do, do, do...

You're different and special
You're different and special in every way imaginable
You love me from my hair follicles to my toenails
You got me feeling like the breeze, easy and free and lovely and new
Oh when you touch me I just can't control it
When you touch me, I just can't hold it
The emotion inside of me, I can feel it


Six months

Three more weeks

and I go back to Davis.

SO fucking miserable today.
I hate flaking on friends
and I hate family problems.


No matter what happens, you can't escape.

Rahki just passed;
absolutely horrible repercussions.

It's crazy how I want to get the fuck out of here so badly
yet I know I'll be sad when I go back to Davis.

Time to just reflect

Oh it's been a while, eh?

Well this blog is just to update
so I doubt it'll make any sense.

OK. To start off summer '09:
-went to Parth's graduation and cried because I'm so damn proud of that boy
-laser hair removal began
-got hired at subway
-stupid co worker Greg does not like me but has a crush on sachin
-went to pinkberry with crystal
-Bought Beyonce tickets for Crystal and Rachel's birthdays (only Rachel could go)
-Saw Transformers 2
-Saw Bruno
-Fought with, reconciled, and got irritated with the boyfriend
-All is well with him, though. Actually REALLY GOOD with him
-Went to the beach with Ariana, Tiffany and Kanika; "FUCKIN BRR"
-Played Uno
-Went to the beach with Heidi, Greg, Allie, Travis, Audrey, Cheryl and others
-I wish I believed in something as strongly as Heidi believes in God. It must be amazing to always have someone to rely on.
-Of course hung out with my Indians (:
-Smoked hookah
-BALLOON POPPED IN MY FACE AND I CRIED LIKE A LITTLE GIRL
-Fireworks; Literal and figurative
-I did not give in to temptation
-Watched Mark dance (:
-Hung out with Nadia, Agus and the baby!!!
-Met up with Marina at Rubio's three times
-Sushi and hookah with Alex, Chris, Eliseo and Tausif for alex's birthday


Out of order but still important.
Summer is flying by.


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LOOK BACK HERE IN SEPT 09

Davis is right for me.
I may get terribly sad up there
and procrastinate like no other
but it's an amazing school and I'm lucky to go there.

I shouldn't give up so easily.
I never have before, I don't know what came over me this past year.

I just need to remember that a UCD degree is worth a lot to me
and I'm just a girl trying to accomplish my dreams.

And yes, I still want to be a teacher.

Freshman year coming to a close

SO for those of you who do not know
I am coming home early for summer vacation.
My finals are electronic...I can take them at home.
I've begun to tell some friends up here about it
and to my surprise,
they're bummed out.
I honestly did not think I made that much of an impression on anybody up here.
But now they are all making plans to have a goodbye dinner/party thing for me.
To tell you the truth, I'm touched.

but ONWARDS.

I fell in love with my baby cousin Kabir last weekend
seriously too adorable (picture soon)

And every single time I hang out with my sister, I realize that she and I are becoming more and more alike as time goes on. We've both changed and I don't hate her anymore. In fact, she is one of my best friends.
CRAZY how things turn out, eh?

AND as feelings get deeper, distance gets harder.
But it's worth it.

Joshua Radin- The Fear You Won't Fall

Anyone out there?

5 page paper
2 page paper

I'm exhausted; I want to sleep.

But this sinking feeling won't leave; kinda drowning here.
I don't know what to do
and no one is noticing
not even when I make it obvious.


Hmm recent events:
-eliseo and alex made up
-chris took alex to his formal
-I've spent any time out of class just in bed (not sleeping, just pondering)
-Lot of homework
-Just irritated
-A LOT of grey's anatomy
-Chris confided in me<3
-Rachel refuses to wake up hahahaha
-TOO MANY ALL NIGHTERS
-Consumption of cup of noodles galore
-Flattered Boy and Embarrassed Girl
-Pressure, pessimisim, pressure


I don't know what to say or what to do but I feel a mighty powerful migraine coming on...

And now for the ever-present question

What's keeping me here?

2 months

Yeahhhh two months
and I'm in Davis.

"Pardon my french...but I fucking miss you."

Justin Nozuka- Golden train


To transfer or not to transfer?
Every single day of my sophomore year is going to be planned by the HOUR.


Ze naiya told me I need to suck it up and move on from my past.
"Imagine if you didn't have to go through that misery during your helpless years?? You'd be a shining star right now"

Twitterpated

A best friend
The Jim to my Pam
The funny guy
The IMMATURE guy
Absolutely TOO responsible
Definitely a smartass
and yet, he's always on my mind.


CANNOT even begin to tell anybody how amazing spring break was for me.


Guess you're right Heidi: I'm twitterpated.


Warren Barfield- 10 Hours

Spring Break 09

mmmk so it's only been 3 days buuuuuuuuuuuut a TON has happened


Friday 3/20/09
-Failed geology final
-came home/made a new friend AARON (:
-got my eyebrows done (hurt lahk a mofugga)
-Went to Sanjay's to hang out with A$
-Had to leave around 8:00ish so I could finish my papers for English
-Got in a car accident


It was really scary. I crashed into two trees and a street sign and I skidded into oncoming traffic AND I didn't hit anyone else. I'm SO lucky because all that happened to me was a couple of bruises and a slight burn on my left arm. Someone was definitely looking out for me.

"My arm hurts"
"WHAT?!? When you fell from heaven?!?"

I'm going to go get checked out by the doctor today.

-I'm a Badass Pimp to Mexico

Saturday 3/21
-Forever 21 with Heidi, Audrey and Priya<33
-oh goshhhh I missed them
-In N Out with Heidi and Audrey
-"THINK CANDID THOUGHTS"
-Got in trouble; had to come home at 3am to a sleeping Naiya
-"Hey...remember when it was just you and me? Dammit Jehan" BAHAHA
-Hersh took me home


Sunday 3/22
-Meditation (:
-Movie with A$, aalap and sanjay
-My arm really started to hurt
-4:30am "you're one of my best friends"
"mmMMMmm tastes good"
Socks on, blankets covering and you STILL manage to give me goosebumps


Today is Monday 3/23/09
About to go to the doctor
then hookah tonight with Alex and Kanika woooooo

Get Me Bodied

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tQaYXaPliIs



BEYONCE
ahhhhh
hahahahahaha



Patcho weave

Asher Roth "I Love College"

GAH
I should sleeeeeeeeep


Still haven't found a party at THIS level hahaha

Pnate

Monthiversary

One month con A$
but I'm spending it at school
and work
watching all the happy couples prance around

Yes I'm bitter.

March 13th, 2009
02:41am
Am I keeping you up?
Only my heartbeat.

"You make me so mad! I don't know how you get me so worked up"
"I like doing it!"


Today was the first day at work where I didn't end up doing dishes or cleaning tables (HAIL YES!)
Worked a lot this week; pretty schweet and exhausting. MAKE THAT $$$

six days till I'm homeeee

And i can't wait to see your face, hmmm oh.
My hands are dying to touch you, oh whoa,
But i ain’t got the patience to wait.

Can't Stop

2000 word english paper
One page healthful living paper
Midterm on Wednesday
Work Tuesday

JAYSUS.

I'm fucking tired.

10 MORE DAYS.

First Day of Work

Worked my first shift at Segundo Dining Commons last night.
Got to wear a chef shirt and errthang
Piercing inserts for my nose/lip piercings were extremely hard to get
Worked at ze Bistro with Veronica, Darwin and Jeremiah
JEREMIAH WAS A BULLFROG

"It's your first day; you're getting dishroom"
(Which, by the way, smells like vomit and depression)

Alex came by to laugh at me in my uniform
but, to her surprise, I looked "cute" apparently
Her tiny head has to cope!

Everytime we got a ton of people and a line started to form, a little bit of my self esteem died
(I feel bad for holding people up)

It's for ze money

Help me find myself

like I have found you




24 days till spring break
I miss you.

I'm having one of those days

that follow a night of no sleep.

I didn't sleep for a reason.
Meh.
This is getting too repetitive.
I'm exhausted.
Nothing can wake you up like fear.


It's one of those days
where everything is moving too slowly
where there's no need to get out of bed
where you feel like you're not feeling anything
yet you're feeling everything

It's one of those days
where the world keeps carrying on
and you are definitely just staying still


So much to do
So little time
and I really just don't give a fuck.


Yes it's back and it's overwhelming again.
Sigh.

Walnuts

2/15:
Leave for Davis with ted, sach and A$
Incubus, Opeth, BEATZ
Arrive at about 12:30am on the 16th and they got to meet alex, anton and tausif

2/16:
Stay at alex's till 4am
Come to my dorm where Ted, Sach and Rach are fast asleep
Go to bed but not reallllllllllllly
Stay in bed till 2pm because we're SO lazy
Went to subway with Alex, Gina, and Anton
Anton and Aakash got along (so pwecious)
Alex's dorm; BIG BOY
Aakash met cassie and steph
Sushi and stealing my phone with pretentious old men next to us
Led Sachin the wrong way on A street =[
Bedtime; secrets, pills and "I'm always here for you"
Alicia Keys "Like I'll never see you again"

2/17
Didn't go to class; stayed in bed
RA interview
Segundo direct deposit
Walking in the rain
House hunting
"looks like someone drew a bunch of boxes and someone built it"
Pointless psych review
Back to the dorm with ICE COLD FEET
keepin me warm (:
Monster, Kung Fu Panda, Sachin's story about the baby stoplight, Teddy's itchy eye, bedtime
"Ear-itating....geddit?"
"Noam Chompsky is Nativist. CHOMP like the natives. SKY like aakash because he's a beast"
"Superwoman. It's your thighs"
Overwhelming something or another in mah chest
Aakash is a thief
In bed till 1pm today

2/18
"Something this good doesn't ever last long with me. Something always fucks it up"
DC: "Why is it that whenever we come here it always comes down to my hair?!"
THEY LEFT

My 11:11 wish came true (:

Last night was Valentine's and I took SO long working on Aakash's gift that I still haven't given it to him :(
But it's worth the wait. I swearrrrrrrrr

El Torito around 10pm
mmmmmmmmm flan
11:20pm: Come back to drop off flan to ze sister
Drive down the hill AND PULL OVER
"I have a question but you have to promise not to get mad"
11:44pm: Kisses on the cheek and sweet nothings in my ear (:

Amazing night!

Don't know what else to do or say

Wish I could hold you
Just for a little while, let me
I wish I could see you right now
But you're so far away
It's driving me crazy
I'm missing you baby
And the way you touch me
It's unlike anything I've ever felt before
That's how I know I am yours

I can't keep throwing myself at you.
Sometimes I need reciprocation :(
And no matter how much you don't give back...I still find these kinds of songs that remind me of you
because you DO make me all kinds of happy when you tell me how you feel.
I just want it more.

I still miss you more than anything.
But maybe you're just losing interest?
Eh maybe I'm being stupid.
But I seriously cannot ignore this feeling anymore.
I'm still in for the long haul but maybe you aren't.


It's like summertime always, like it's sunny out all day
Whenever you smile, sweeter than momma's homemade
I thought that every man was made the same way
But in a world of smoke and ashes boy, you are milk and honey

Jaysus I sound sad and desperate :/

I like skinny

Yeah well I like perfect.
HOW DO YOU RESPOND TO THAT?


Amazing nights this past weekend
but not so amazing days.
-Ukulele "Somewhere Over the Rainbow"
-Paul Blart Mall Cop and sweaty palms/broken chairs
-Deuces Wild and knocking out
-"Small stuff out, big stuff in"
-"Don't go back on Monday"
-"Let's forget time and responsibility"

Welcome to the world Adrianna Rose Lopez<3
You will always be loved by many.
12:52 am 1/18/09

You make me feel
That everything is going right
That I can go to sleep tonight

I'm falling even more into like with you

'Cause every time you hold me in your arms
I'm comfortable enough to feel your warmth


One month of sobriety on 1/19/09
ps on 12/19/08 "I like you too"


"Isn't that too intense and too soon to say for you two? You don't want to scare him"
"I just say how I feel and it pays off; there's no need to play games"

It’s the risk that I’m taking
I’m never gonna shut you out
Everywhere I’m looking now
I’m surrounded by your embrace
ps your arms are the only ones I want to feel around me
Heart murmurs and all (:


On another note......
I am DAMN lucky to have rachel feliza as my roommate and more importantly as my best friend.
I can tell that girl anything
"wuss yo name delicate?"


We Match- Gabe Bondoc
Bubbly- Colbie Cailat
Halo- Beyonce

MATRIX

"I'm psychic"
Stalin
Putin
Obama
Muhammed
Lebanon
Camel
Stab a cat

All these inside jokes with a certain Alex E. Valencia is what's getting me through Davis.

I realize the previous sentence is not grammatically correct.

I've only been here a week and the days keep dragging.

ANYWAYS everyone and their mom knows why I want to go home so badly.
I've pretty much spent my entire time back with Gina&Alex.
Last week has consisted of: switching schedules, hot cheetos (limon), late nights, body rolls, monsters, "secrets don't make friends", aerobic running, sore butts, fucking bikes, smoker lungs, crack addiction, notecard memory depletion, knowitall-isms, "coolest girl on the bench", "you're the only person I haven't said anything bad about....that's a first"
GALORE

Not Lost

Thanks for helping me sleep (:


"kash (11:49 PM): hmm to me you are"

Back in Davis and I want to go HOME

To see you when I wake up
Is a gift I didn't think could be real.
To know that you feel the same as I do
Is a three-fold, Utopian dream.

You do something to me that I can't explain.
So would I be out of line if I said "I miss you"?

I see your picture.
I smell your skin on
The empty pillow next to mine.
You have only been gone ten days,
But already I'm wasting away.
I know I'll see you again
Whether far or soon.
But I need you to know that I care,
And I miss you.




Holy crap it hasn't even been ten days
asdf I miss you

East (9:40:55 PM):

how'd you sleep last night, eh?

kash (9:41:44 PM):

i couldnt really...was jus' laying there...bored looking at my phone pics cuz i was bored...and couldn't stop thinking about what's her face

This is the first time I completely agree with my senior quote:
It's a strange thing, but when you are dreading something, and would give anything to slow down time, it has a disobliging habit of speeding up.

Take me away because I love how you make me feel


k i'm done