Monday, December 22, 2008

Bears, Beets, Battlestar Galactica

Ted's party last night:
-sobriety rules
-casey yin and christian acuna (ohhh my)
  • trapped in the closet
-updating with jocelyn
-plane/e.c. with rach
-Jcua's "filipino bro hair" as crystal puts it
-bobo punch in the face
-kingster: "I DIDN'T KNOW I WAS YELLING"

AFTER
-Sachin "No one else gets me like you do"
-Up all night watching south park/office (:
"are you comfortable?"

Saturday, December 20, 2008

Too Giddy

Turned out better than expected :)


Keenu
U Neek
UNIQUE

Special in both ways

Friday, December 19, 2008

Tomorrow's the big day

At least, for me it is.


Wish me luck
:X

Sunday, December 7, 2008

Mario Kart Love Song





makes me all warm inside (:

Saturday, December 6, 2008

Texting schmexting

New phone has terrible memory capacity for text messages :(
And since I don't want to study for my finals....

Parth:
"Have a great time, favorite. It'll be fun. But don't do anything i wouldn't :-) haha. Call me in the morning when you leave. Love you :-D"
"We all miss you, too :-("
"I <333 you, too, hermana. Thanks once again"
"Alrighty. And this weekend made me realize: they say that the friends/family from high school that you stay with through college will be there through life. And of course that'll be the case with you, but i feel Rachel, too, now. So davis would be great"
"Thank ye. See you then. Tonight's dinner at Acapulco felt incomplete because the whole family came except you"

Saleeb
:
":( take comfort in knowing that it is all over and will never happen again. That you have people around u who would die for u and that God is constantly with u."
"U will be truly happy one day because dammit u sure as hell deserve it. U lovely lovely Giraffe."
"I love u so much and dont ever hesitate to call me. :) and btw u r never alone, not in a creepy way. :)"
"Good night, i love u :)"
"Are u back?! Today i was sitting there thinking that i miss ya! Dude college is gonna suck. Ha"
"Sc is a breeding ground for ur people. It makes me miss u :("
"I love jews"

Chrissy:
"heychadha. I'm leaving have a fantastic week! Take a shot for me when your daddy leaves. I love you."
"happy birthday! niggahhhhhhhhzzzzzzzz bitchmuthafuckah!! Leagal hookahing and clubbing"
"I love you. Thanks for this morning. Goodnight mon amie!"

Sachin:
"I needed to tell someone cuz im beyond tripping out! And i trust u a lot!"
"Haha dude ur the best! For reals! U are! Thanx for everything foolio!"
"I miss u! :("
"Haha thanx dude! Uve always been there for me and i truly appreciate it! U dont even know how much! :)"

Roomie:
"oh girl..You cant hear her with that knife in her gut"
"of course you would! Id sing you lullabies and stroke your hair"
"For some reason i keep thinking about davis at the jacuzzi.. Oh nicolas pauli (:"
"Yeah but this was after i transifugred. Transfigured. So sleepy"
"): at davis im gonna wake up and totally gush to you about my latest dream and youre gonna be like wtf mom wow cow"
"Noooo cus youre gonna sleep and were gonna spooooon (:"
"Have i told your lately that i love you?"
"Are they tiny? The smaller they are the less space i have to cover to snuggle next to you (:"
"You can be little spoon!! (:"
"Baby don't fight it... <3 (okay ill stop)"
"Cant wait <3 need my dose of karinaaaaa"
"Have a good night girl and thank you thank you thank you for EVERYTHING"
"tHEY KEEP PLAYING PITBULL AHHH"
"<3 was iming you a lil while ago because it seems like we havent talked in ages but no response so ima go nighty night. Love you curry nom nom naaa"
"We in the bed like hu hu hu"
"Dont thank me. its what im here for you. I got you babe.. Never ever hesitate"
"Okay so youre gross (: goshhh i miss you." "DEATH? I dont wanna die...chicken.. Whupping.."
"Goodnight. So glad you were born <3"
"Im SO thankful and so is justin. Thank you SO SO SO much, youre such a great friend"
"THANK YOU SO MUCH NOM NOM"
"Hey there, how ya doing? You are the one that i am really pursuing and i would like to get to know ya, like to gimme your name and if ya jot down ya number ill give mine in exchange.. Hi (:"
"*justin rubs my feet as i lose consciousness* (supertrooper) 'if you were my wife, id give you foot rubs till you fell asleep' (kchad) 'ew thats creepy' *justin drops my feet* Thanks for having us over!!"
"SooooOo excited for skewlz. Moochiez. Love you!"
"Girls beind me in class confirmed WHY I DONT HAVE ANY FRIENDS THAT ARE GIRLS. Mish yew"
"But my kisses cure insomnia ):"
"Thanks love. Din din. Oh bambi. Its cold as a motherfucker outside! Fack"
"Lava yous. Text/call/facebook/communicate telepathically whenev"
"Oh honey. Whatever troubles you will never be annoying"
"I need you to realize that there are a bunch of people in the world who love the eebiejeebies out of you" "Thought id work on my paper while i wait to board my plane.. "here is my attempt at a love note. Oh wait im not drunk" <3 im so thankful i have you in my life"


Bobo:
"love you babe of course. night hon"
"Yes! I did haha i'm soo tired now so i'm gonna sleep. Water and food all night k? Love you see ya tomorrow babe :)"
"I'm always here if you decide to pull the lesbian card..."
"No need to get jealous though Nana i only have eyes for you"
"You like it. That was like a flirty 'cut it out' Haha :) night boo"
"Get it together makes me really happy for some reason it's very hopeful :) love you"
"What is that even supposed to mean! Like cheche kinds biting? Like He's a freak"
"Hey :) hope you're having a good day love you and rach :)"

Tat yee:
"Do it. Getting lonely without you"
"count bears hopping the rainbow of weed"
"I'm holding your hand"
"Would totally text but you might be asleep. It's 5 here and i'm all alone.."
"Haha nice. Work it honey"
"Not for the little lesbians"
"Can only aspire to work it as well as you!"
"Alrighty. I miss you. I'll try to make an appearance :)"
"I love youuu"
"I need some lovin', na na na."
"O.O yeah karina, everythings cool, thanks. Really, Karina, i'm fine. Love you :) if something was wrong, i'd let you know"
"Okay. God. Giraffe. Both capitalized"
"Alright, i'm depending on you to be my weed wing(wo)man"
"Worth every mile!"
"Do you want us to pull over so you can
?"

"Aye aye. Well, good luck with the weekend. Remember, sticks and stones can break your bones but PDA can only make you vom. Stay strong, i'm with you in spirit."

Jocelyn
"aww karina! You were thinking of meeee! Haha i love you girlll"
"Happppy birthdayy karinaaa!! I love ya :)"
"Aww karina i love you. I miss you so much but i already knew that haha"
"Aww man im so sad you live so far. I wanna visit you even more jmjtmdaj take care love"

SLO Rach Dee:
"Youre the crazy one"
"Ah see you soon lovah!"
"I almost missed my stop because i was looking through the pictures of us ha"
"Oh my god i just walked by another addiction tattoo and the girl with the rainbow hair and her bf were sitting outside. Miss you!"
"Im at that place we ate at on my birthday. Its a bit sad though without you"
"Happy birthday dipwit! Wish i could be there <3" "Oh i fucking love you little ones now! Ha. If we split it three ways then that could work"


Nadia:
"aga and i would love to see you. i really missed u. outta everyone. so if u can we can do something tomorrow. we'd love to!"
"Tita kchad of course."

Cheryl:
"Miss you already =("
"Love youuuu<3" everything ="(">

Audrey
:
"Just to let you know...Heidi and i miss you. A lot. Come home!"

Crazy Blair:
"Omg ur soo deep. Caues u have brown hair"
"Blond ppl are deep. Like a golden retrevr"
"OMG! We need to do a line off my braclets"

Mama Chadha:
"Hi mithu they are showing kabhikhushikabhigam and i was thinking of all the times we watched it together i miss you a lot love you"



Random:
"Happy biiirdday Ms buddy krocker!!!"- Taniya Ahmed
"Last night was hella fun :] luv ya!"- Mehr
"Happy birthday miss no more minor!"-Hersh
"Happy Birthday sis!"- Agus
"I love u and always will. Your a very special person with the biggest heart. Call u when i get back"- Mark
"Hey Karina! I totally forgot to say thankyou for last night and the ride home today! Ur the best! =)"- Manali
"No doubt haha. well i'll talk to u soon. Hopefully SEE you too soon. GNite :)"- Ka$h
(aka the best text ever HAHAHAH)
"I love you and i miss you"- Tiffany
"Yus, was just about to leave. You are om-nom-niscient."- Ryan Stone
"Love you curry!"- Sara Gonzalez
"I get high with a little help from my friends!!!! :) haha kina i miss you sooooo!!!!"- Hersh
"Thanks i love you kariiina"- Nick B



I NEED MORE MEMORY ON MY PHONE


OH! random drafts:
"My eyes are like jaba the hut"- ted
"How about a gray popsickel? It tastes like newspaper"- ted
"Teddy's chasing after his legs"- me
"I feel like i'm at the last supper"- ted
"Is your mouth not too busy?"- Jas Q to tat yee
"Furfull face"- Jas Q
"Pumpkin soap!"- Mark
"I thought i could smell them when we came in."- Tim
"Hit and run"- me to Garv
"'OH GOD' big eyes. Grand feat if you remember. Jabba jabba jabba jabba. REFRIED? I was wondering why you looked so DAMN sexy today. Chocolate is god's poop. You're a one way ticket to the moon"- Kanika
"So tangy"- Sachin
"Phantom hag. Daddy didn't hug you; well there's your hug. oooo baby likes her milk. Mein Kampf more like Mein Cock. Pns explosion."- Anthony Conover
"I should moderate this shit. What the FUCK is going on?!?! I can walk i'm fine. Hey girl hey! I don't want to pee and puke at the same time that's just awkward. Biological jungle juice"- Lamb
"Girls under 100 pounds cannot pound. HAHAHAHBARF"- Teddy
"Whitney coke. Smoothe criminal gas company. Tearin through ya. Men in tights. Eileen Dover. Prof Dumblewhore 'come to class to learn how to use a wand.' Umi Sohorny"- Davis is Burning
"My laugh is like I'm a cute bag lady with a hard life"- FABULOUS justin kurup
"You haven't seen moulin rouge? Youre not really gay then"- Aaron to Chris
"No fritos for you! (Irish accent)"- me to kanika
"Mama Chadha will bring the indian fury"- Ashely Boyd


India Arie- Brown skin
India Arie- Can I Walk with you

Sunday, November 30, 2008

Go stupid, go dumb dumb

O sleep, O gentle sleep, nature's soft nurse, how have I frightened thee,
that thou no more wilt weigh my eye-lids down and steep my senses
in forgetfulness?
(I can't remember shit. I always thought it was the smoking but statistics actually show that insomnia causes memory loss/forgetfulness)
Shakespeare was on to something

.Fuck insomnia.

SO much work. Too stupid to flourish.
the lack of desire is absolutely overwhelming.

I just LOVE how mama chadha will check in on me at 4:30am, turn off the light and expect me to fall asleep.
Insomnia is clearly my fault and it's a quick fix.
(Yeah well stfu already...come back to me after you experience years of nightmares/flashbacks/stress and THEN talk to me)



Frou Frou- Close up

I wasn't looking but look what I found

not in a good sense, naturally.

Lately Sachin is the only person who can make me laugh like when I was a 6 year old tomboy watching Boy Meets World on ABC's TGIF in front of a fireplace eating chocolate-covered strawberries.

yaddamean?


[oh so adorable picture with a puka shell necklace (: ]

Frou Frou- Let Go

Monday, November 24, 2008

Ninguno

Hah just learned what that meant.


Even though I don't talk about it incessantly, it's always on my mind.
Always.
Whether I show it or not.

Gah this is getting redundant.
And by "this," I mean everything.


I guarantee that this blog won't make sense to anyone haha

Saturday, November 22, 2008

Spiral



You know that feeling you get when it's a cold morning and you wake up but remain halfway asleep and you're tucked in to your blanket so perfectly that you just never want to move?
It's the same feeling you get when you're hugged by a loved one you haven't seen in a while
or
When you're laughing with some of your true friends over something completely nonsensical

It's kind of like an I'm-comfortable-don't-ever-move-me-never-been-happier-warm-down-to-my-toes type of thing.

Yeah I haven't felt it for a very long time.

Thursday, November 13, 2008

Wait, are you joking?

Hah it seems like I've been getting that a lot lately.
I joke around so often that people can't even tell when I'm actually being serious about something.

k: "You should cut your hair a little bit"
r: "Can you cut my hair?"
k: "No I don't know how to."
r: "Well learn and THEN you can come talk to me about it"
(:


ANYWAYS
I need to stop getting distracted so easily.
(I'm too excited about going home for Thanksgiving, though! Guess that just shows how much I don't really love college)

Monday, November 3, 2008

SURPRISE

Thursday 10/30/08:
-Leave at 7 pm for a surprise visit home
-Arrive in Oakland at 9:35 pm

Friday 10/31/08
HAPPY HALLOWEEN MOTHERFUCKER
-Bus to San Luis (Arrive at 4am)
-Rest in SLO till 10am
-Drive to Santa Barbara
-Drive to Diamond Bar (Arrive at 4pm)
-Surprise my parents and my mom SCREAMED at the top of her lungs
-Visit Tiffany at work for a quick second
-Go to Parth's to surprise him because his birthday is on Nov 4th AND I GOT TO DRIVE MOBY<333
-Get back home around 9pm
-Smoke hookah with family/friends
-Up till 4am talking to ashley and teddy about applesauce

Saturday 11/01/08

-Go to Heidi Diaz's surprise party (one of the main reasons I went down south)

-Ghetto Superstar
-Errbody shocked and it was amaaaaaazing
-Went to apple store in brea to visit greg

-Seeing Heidi, Audrey and Cheryl made everything worth it
-Pinkberry while raining
-Go home for Diwali Party
-Dad is a bit too happy "SINGH IS KING"
-Priya&Jocelyn<333
-Curry fam JYUEASHHH
-Lip ring (OH SHIT- kiran)
-Up until 4 am with a drunk ashley, my brother, hersh and parth

Sunday 11/02/08
-Heidi Diaz's actual birthday
-Mama chadha wouldn't let me out so teddy and sachin came over
-Waxing leg/arms FACK
-"this one is for that tattoo; this one is for that piercing"
-Spicy Indian food (DRINK SOME MILK.....wait spit it out)
-leave at 2 pm
-arrive in SLO around 7pm
-"eye of the jew"

Monday 11/03/08
-Leave slo around 12:20am
-Oakland at 5:15am
-Davis at 7:20 am
-Chris was waiting at amtrak =]
-BAM
-Bus ride took us ALL AROUND DAVIS
-"Are we even in Davis anymore??"
-Reach back at the dorms around 8:50am

COMPLETELY AMAZING
but tiring

Friday, October 24, 2008

Keep putting me down

I have been pretty sick for the past 3 days.
GAH.

It's funny because my attendance in high school was deplorable
but in college it's completely pristine.
Well at least it used to be until I got sick =[
I've officially missed 3 classes =[
AHHH


Anyways I'm annoying.
Recently I feel that I am just completely dumb. Absolutely and holistically stupid (especially in comparison to how I used to be). I guess I just don't like who I've become.
k bye

Saturday, October 18, 2008

Crack Addict

ASFL;KJSAFKASLFJSD

"I don't cry, I just sweat from my eyes"
"I don't run, I smoke"

Just keep your chin up.
Mmts mmts just gettin through all of this.

Oh sachin and our looks.
3 YEARS?!?!?!?!
Oh teddy and our feelings.
Oh ryan and our similarities.
Oh fatima and our awkward statements.


Mmk I have to go write my paper.
Sheesh.

Thursday, September 25, 2008

Ode to nostalgia

I miss Parth.
I miss Hersh.
I miss curry crew.
I miss Manali & Tanya and the fact that they're genuinely some of the nicest girls I know.
I miss mah familia.
I miss having deep conversations with Chrissy.
I miss Crystal and her blunt comments.
I miss being Aalap's shoulder.
I miss Aakash's sarcastic comments about anything and everything.
I miss Sachin and viewing the ocean with him.
I miss Tanaka's random sentences.
I miss SBF.
I miss Heidi, Audrey, Cheryl and Alex...girls that always put a smile on my face.
I miss Teddy's comforting words.
I miss Tim's sentiment.
I miss Ariana's witty comments.
I miss going out to eat with Nadia.
I miss driving.
I miss Ruben's innocent & genuine personality....plus "all day I don' give uh FUHCK."
I miss the comfort of being around people who truly know me.
(except I have Rach...but still)

I don't miss getting in trouble.
I don't miss the lack of freedom.
I don't miss having a curfew.
I don't miss the lack of things to do.


First day of college tomorrow and I'm excited.
So many new things to experience.
<3

Monday, September 22, 2008

3rd Day

Currently in my dorm room anxiously awaiting Rachel's return from her pre-calc test so that she and I can go out.
Last night I rode my bike for the first time up here; the chain snapped off and I could barely keep my balance. Absolutely ridiculous if you ask me. There was a fire alarm at 6:00am yesterday morning and I literally froze my ass off.
1st floor = SO many people stomping around upstairs and my roommates and I have already had 3 noise complaints on us (Room 108 is where it's at??)
I got my textbooks and I'm SO excited to start classssssssss


I have to learn the bus schedule.
I have to learn it NOW.
I hate bikes

Wednesday, September 17, 2008

Dark Chocolate

LAURENT

thanks for making me feel better =]

"Like rachel? Like he's a freak?"

Leaving soooooooo soon!
Said goodbye to mr poullard today =[
Went to cue for the first time
"voice of ketchup"
"grumble"
"t-pain is a robot"
"It's a turban! No a do-rag with a bow!"
"Rachel the friendly hoe"

"Who are you tryin to be? With your chucks? shoooot"

Thursday, September 4, 2008

=]

"you must be one of the most beautiful girls I've ever seen"

ohhhh my
If only I weren't leaving

Wednesday, September 3, 2008

So tangy

Turned 18

FINALLY.


Got closer with Sachin =]
Distanced from others.
Chrissy left...miss her a lot
Moving oh so soon!


"No one can pull anyone back from anywhere. You save yourself or you remain unsaved"- Lucky
How horribly accurate, eh?

I'm trying my best to keep on truckin. Sucking it up, moving on, and ultimately saving myself.

Friday, August 22, 2008

"I just wanted to be on television"


Anybody wanna waste some time?


Absolutely amazing

Wednesday, August 20, 2008

Tita/Tia

Amazing how something so small
can have astronomical repercussions
such as reconciling a friendship
and completely altering the future.
(:

I'm really happy and worried and excited and expectant all at the same time.



Memorable quotes from ze past four days:
"Sperm proof"
"favorite animal for dinner"
"geisha girl"
"It doesn't matter if you're horizontal"
"I just sit there"
"WAIT. NO"
"I'm going to stay your friend forever, karina chadha. Because look what happens when it stops!"

Friday, August 15, 2008

Straw that broke the camel's back

You know that statement? Well I'm about there.
One of the best/worst summers of my life.
Broke up; blast from the past; first disagreement with other best friends.

My attention span is diminishing; I can't help but scribble when I'm bored:



1. Know your limitations
2. Do not overindulge
3. Do what's necessary at the time
And if you follow #1 then you don't even need the other two.

Parents have been gone for a while and I honestly feel like I took full advantage.
I've lived it up!
But now all my brain cells are gone (it's like X^2 is actually 2 times X but who would make a mistake like that? :p )

Marina's back in Mexico for some reason. I'm going to miss her even though she thinks nothing will change. Saying goodbye on Sunday....actually more like a 3 month "see ya later"

p.s. Did you know that if your car is a pre 1968 model then you don't have to wear a seatbelt? The law was enacted for all cars after that year.


Saturday, July 26, 2008

Letting it Burn

It's finally sinking in.
Well any of the people that I've confided in lately know what I'm talking about.
And it's only sunk in because I heard the song that he recommended to me.
GAH.
Short blog but whatever.



PS now that I finished Feliza's birthday gift, every thought is in Mad Gab terms


PLUS the fact that the soldier's back in town isn't making any of this "novice heartache" any easier on me

I haven't felt this fragile in a long time.

And yet, I found I could survive. I felt the pain--the aching that radiated out from my chest, sending wracking waves of hurt through my limbs and head--but it was manageable. I could live through it.
It didn't feel like the pain had weakened over time, rather that I'd grown strong enough to bear it.



Tuesday, July 22, 2008

OH MY GAWD DUNCAN

Don't remember me
I mean
we're not even close anymore
breakin my wido heart
PLEASE
TAKE THIS SERIOUSLY
IT'S ONLINE SO I MUST REALLY REALLY MEAN IT

crazy raggedy bitch

All your dreams are waking up

What in the ebony and ivory is going on?
Back in town
and old habits reborn.

Don't know how to cope.

Migraines everyday this past week.

Happy juice and draded; Teddy Choi turned 18.

"Freedom only exists when love is present. The person who gives him or herself wholly, the person who feels freest, is the person who loves most wholeheartedly.
That is the true experience of freedom: having the most important thing in the world without owning it"

Thursday, July 10, 2008

Orientation

At Davis right now and I have about 5 min to kill.
I MISS NEW YORK
Visiting Rachel Dlugatch just helped me realize that I belong in New York
New goal: NYU grad school

Can't upload pictures for some reason.
Picking college courses hasn't been too difficult.
Feelin bad because I haven't been there for my friends a whole lot these last few weeks because I've been out of town. Hope I've helped you Feliza....at least a little bit.

Passed my AP tests; Gov AND Eng
YAYYYY

Fell in love twice in New York (French man & Chris Brown look-a-like)
Wait, three times. "Too scared to get it on the ribs"


I need to be with my friends right now...miss you all

Sunday, July 6, 2008

New York, New York

Last night in New York for me.
I can honestly say that my friendship with Rach is effortless....traveling is our biggest problem; I'm going to miss her a lot. (I wish Rachu could have made it in time  for all three of us to be together)
I love New York....it's ridiculous how amazing it is.
Oh Buddha...how I love thee =]

I'll update more tomorrow when I'm back with ze fam bam

Sunday, June 22, 2008

Breathe me

Help, I have done it again
I have been here many times before
Hurt myself again today
And, the worst part is there's no-one else to blame

Be my friend
Hold me, wrap me up
Unfold me
I am small
and needy
Warm me up
And breathe me

Ouch I have lost myself again
Lost myself and I am nowhere to be found,
Yeah I think that I might break
Lost myself again and I feel unsafe

Be my friend
Hold me, wrap me up
Unfold me
I am small
and needy
Warm me up
And breathe me




Hmm. Pretty song.

Saturday, June 21, 2008

Three days with Red Jasmine




June 18:
"I just wanted to remind you that I love you A LOT. So when you think there is no one who understands or cares, remember that I Love You and try to SMILE :)"- Tiffany Chadha
"Oh fuck themmmm. I love you!"- Teddy Choi
"Here for you girl, with ibuprofen, belly rubs, foot rubs, caresses, loving words, whateva (: "- shall remain anonymous

June 19:
"How's my lovely awesome cool friend doing?"- Tanaka
"Omg im hoping to GOODNESS we get eachother as roommates tambien" - Happy Lamb of God
"Asians dont hit on girls cuz theyre too shy anyway but yeah"- Bokshil


June 20:
"Hope you're good. Miss/love you"- Chrissy
"You didn't lose everyone. I love you"
"I love you now and then"
"I'm going to try on the sluttiest bathing suit and think of you (: "- Feliza
"Got nothin but love for ya...Want me to take a picture? (: "


TWICE TOO MANY
"When I first came to your house I really liked you and I was so scared that I was going to mess everything up"- Saleeeeeeeb<3




Tuesday, June 17, 2008

They told me I was Puerto Rican


Last few days have flown by.
Seems like everyone has been in a weird mood lately.
Touching is good.
I just miss who I was before I lost everyone

Sunday, June 8, 2008

Graduation

Childhood is OVER.
















Here's to the nights that have yet to come
This is going to be the best summer of my life.
I know it is.
New chapter; I can start over

I just want to be a part of something...

It was worth it at the time
for like 20 minutes.
But now
the repercussions have negated any sense of elation.


I'm sorry cousin
It was just really unfortunate =[

Tuesday, June 3, 2008

Unknown

"I believe that our background and circumstances may have influenced who we are, but we are responsible for who we become.

I believe-that you can keep going, long after you can't.

I believe-that even when you think you have no more to give, when a friend cries out to you you will find the strength to help."

-Unknown

Sunday, June 1, 2008

Last week of school

Monday
-No school
-Hookah with the peenteens
-feliza was a bit too happy
-"I love you more than you know"

Tuesday
-Horrible migraine (no school for me)
-Powderpuff game (tie)
-Cut/bruise along my inner thigh
-Kolina sign

Wednesday
-American Beauty
-"Looks like Michael Olivier"

Thursday
-"Aight den yvonne....Take care *whispers* i love you!"
-"my wido kchad, the optimist"

Friday
-Last day of high school (pics soon)
- Sachin's
-ted/just/eric.....WHAT?
-Breakdown in the car while texting my little bitches

Saturday
-Yearbook signing
-Rubios with Hayi and SBF
-"If you weren't here then I would be the weird girl laughing alone at the salsa bar"
-"That's so mexican"
-Crystal Tjen's
-School pool for Jocelyn (I'm bruised and cut everywhere because I couldnt get over the fence)
-Crystal Kim's <3
-Delirious at 4:30 am


NO SLEEP FOR 5 nights and 6 days
And I got about 1-2 hours of sleep last night.
HOW AM I FUNCTIONING

Friday, May 30, 2008

4:31 am

Nothing to do.
Nowhere to go.


I should study; no terms, though.

Last day of high school in a matter of hours.
Last time my peenteens and I will go to the same school together.
Last time I have anatomy with Greg, Jocelyn, Oliver and Jessica.
Last time I get to be the "weird girl in the corner" in Calculus.
Last time I have to sit through government.
Last time to chill with my sophomores (DRTY girl).
Last time leaving my TA class to go to ASB with Rach&Marina.
Lots of lasts
but even more firsts to come
<3

Monday, May 26, 2008

Desiderata

Go placidly amid the noise and haste,
and remember what peace there may be in silence.
As far as possible without surrender
be on good terms with all persons.
Speak your truth quietly and clearly;
and listen to others,
even the dull and the ignorant;
they too have their story.

Avoid loud and aggressive persons,
they are vexations to the spirit.
If you compare yourself with others,
you may become vain and bitter;
for always there will be greater and lesser persons than yourself.
Enjoy your achievements as well as your plans.

Keep interested in your own career, however humble;
it is a real possession in the changing fortunes of time.
Exercise caution in your business affairs;
for the world is full of trickery.
But let this not blind you to what virtue there is;
many persons strive for high ideals;
and everywhere life is full of heroism.

Be yourself.
Especially, do not feign affection.
Neither be cynical about love;
for in the face of all aridity and disenchantment
it is as perennial as the grass.

Take kindly the counsel of the years,
gracefully surrendering the things of youth.
Nurture strength of spirit to shield you in sudden misfortune.
But do not distress yourself with dark imaginings.
Many fears are born of fatigue and loneliness.
Beyond a wholesome discipline,
be gentle with yourself.

You are a child of the universe,
no less than the trees and the stars;
you have a right to be here.
And whether or not it is clear to you,
no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should.

Therefore be at peace with God,
whatever you conceive Him to be,
and whatever your labors and aspirations,
in the noisy confusion of life keep peace with your soul.

With all its sham, drudgery, and broken dreams,
it is still a beautiful world.
Be cheerful.
Strive to be happy.

Max Ehrmann, Desiderata, Copyright 1952.


















ehskob(2:28:28AM):we're here to hold you up when you can't hold yourself up






Monday, May 19, 2008

Untouchable

"You can spend minutes, hours, days, weeks,
even months over-analyzing a situation;
trying to put the pieces together, justifying what
could've, should've, would've, happened. Or you can just
leave the pieces on the floor and
move the fuck on."




Take a look at my body
Look at my hands
There's so much here
That I don't understand

Your face saving promises
Whispered like prayers
I don't need them
I don't need them

I've been treated so wrong
I've been treated so long
As if I'm becoming untouchable

Contempt loves the silence
It thrives in the dark
With fine winding tendrils
That strangle the heart

They say that promises
Sweeten the blow
But I don't need them
No, I don't need them

I've been treated so wrong
I've been treated so long
As if I'm becoming untouchable

I'm a slow dying flower
Frost killing hour
The sweet turning sour
And untouchable

O, I need
The darkness
The sweetness
The sadness
The weakness
I need this

I need
A lullaby
A kiss goodnight
Angel sweet
Love of my life
O, I need this

Do you remember the way
That you touched me before



I'm trying to move on.
Really, I am.
But it's getting to the point where I'm struggling.

Two steps forward and one step back,
This anchor refuses to let go.



Sunday, May 18, 2008

Saturday, May 17, 2008

Till I collapse

Sometimes you just feel tired. You feel weak. And when you feel weak, you feel like you wanna just give up. But you gotta search within you, try to find that inner strength and just pull that shit out of you, and get that motivation to not give up, and not be a quitter, no matter how bad you wanna just fall flat on your face and collapse.

Till the roof comes off, till the lights go out
Till my legs give out, can’t shut my mouth.
Till the smoke clears out - am I high? Perhaps
I'ma rip this shit till my bone collapse.
Till the roof comes off, till the lights go out
Till my legs give out, can’t shut my mouth.
Till the smoke clears out and my high burn out
I'ma rip this shit till my bone collapse.

That's why you see me walk around like nothing's bothering me


I will not fall,
I will stand tall,
Feels like no one could beat me.




I can only stand tall because I have the love and support of my friends behind me.
<3

Wednesday, May 14, 2008

I miss you

"It's sad when people you know become people you knew, when you can walk right past someone like they were never a big part of your life, how you used to be able to talk for hours and how now you barely look at them. It's sad how times change."

Definition of what's been going on.
I miss godsmack.
I miss metwo.
I miss taylor.
I miss what we used to be
and I miss the security we felt when we were with each other.

Everything has changed.

Monday, May 12, 2008

Emotions

And where are you now, now that I need you?
Tears on my pillow wherever you go
I'll cry me a river that leads to your ocean
You'll never see me fall apart

In the words of a broken heart
It's just emotion taking me over
Caught up in sorrow
Lost in the song


I need help.
I know I do.

Love you crystal<3
ehskob:it's not your fault

I really don't know how to thank you

Sunday, May 4, 2008

Prom night 2008

Paul Torres was such a fun date!



AND he's significantly taller than me.
GIGGITY
"perfect fit"
"sexxxxyyyy"
"build it up"
"look at his shoes"


Well prom was ridiculously fun. Completely worth all the trouble.
I didn't feel like I looked good, though. Hmm.

Crystal and Rachel looked beautiful!





Little bitches hit on me too much:



Went to jack in the box afterwards....guy in the van in front of us got arrested.
Then we went to greg's house....ohhhh cheryl hahahhaa




Random pictures from the night:


LOVE them<3


And now everything is coming to a close.

Wednesday, April 30, 2008

Davis Davis Davis!!



I'm sure there's more to come...

Thursday, April 24, 2008

Simpsons

Just watched The Simpsons.
Flanders said "Good morning students. Let's thank God for another beautiful day"

So in response, Superintendent Chalmers said
"God has no place in these walls just like facts have no place in organized religion!"


OHHHH MY

A whole new level of intimacy

I currently have a horrible migraine so I'm not at school.
I've just been sitting and thinking about how college is coming up. New life in a matter of months. I'm not going to wake up in my bedroom everyday nor will I see my family all the time. Scary yet exciting, huh?
It hasn't hit me that I won't be able to look to my right and see Parth whenever I want to. I know I'm going to miss him horribly. A close friendship for 16 years is hard NOT to miss. If you only knew how he's helped me...he's saved me from myself. He makes me want to be a better person. I couldn't ask for a better cousin/best friend.


Hersh. I can't even to begin to describe what he means to me. It hurts to think about how much I'm going to miss him. He's the only person who is as ticklish as me. He's the sweetest guy I've ever known and I don't know what I'm going to do without him. He simply makes me happier.


More saved texts (I do this just in case I accidentally delete them) -

Feliza:
-"At davis and we just passed by a white buick so crystal and I yelled 'moby dick!' missin you girl!"
-"Watching scrubs. 'nipple rings are hot!' what a fucking creeper"
- "That's exactly what I thought of. Fig newton. I'm not laughing ): "
-"Ah shit. My bro has been trying to get my attention for the past 2 minutes. 'it goes to the left'"
-"Teddy called my back so i'm listening to across the universe while talking to him on my floor. I can't make it downstairs!"
-"Dammit karina i can still feel it! Asdf"


"At church right now. Can't help but giggle (= still trying to think of an alibi.."

-"Bo bo doing the damn thing. I like how we all rub off on each other. That could have a dual meaning i suppose"

Teddy Choi:
-"Ptaw ptpng dmp md. shit. No t9. Stay strong for me"
-"Ftajgmg gomd."
-""How is the hunt for a dress going? Stay strong and don't give in to their lesbian advances!"

Crystal Kim:
-"sdfjkej :) i love you too karina youre awesome. night"
-"Feel better baby girl :("

Jocelyn Choy:
-"I love you karina chadha"
-"Sssssssnake? Pssssh who likessssss sssssnakesssss"
-"Yeah, you know im always here for you if you need to talk or what not..i hope things get betterr. I love you!!"

Others:
Nadia Link: "haha oh why thank you. dude it was nice seeing you there. really, it was"
Ruben: "Seriously, you are the fucking shit"
-"damn you're still high like planes"
Ariana: "I hate you in the i love you kind of way"

Wednesday, April 23, 2008

Are you meshugge?

"too much beef in the taco. And the taco with some cheese"
"It's a picture....it's a moment captured in time"
"My name's j-nasty"
"Where's my blunt? Ohhhhh! I smoked it already"
"I'm melting into myself"
"I didn't want to pop it because then I'd cry"
"They're not fat...they're just misunderstood"


Don't know how I'm getting to prom.
Don't know what I'm wearing yet, either.
AP tests coming up.
Haven't studied at all.
Never in a million years did I think I could choose.
Ohhhhhh man.

Lately I've been feeling like I have nothing going for me. I feel like I don't do anything.


HE messaged me and i had a nervous breakdown.
I've never experienced such hate in my life.
It was so strange that there were people who were willing to listen.
Can't thank you two enough<3
SHAME IS A BITCH

Sunday, April 20, 2008

Semantics 4/19

-"Have you seen the south park movie?" "Is that your pickup line or something??"
-"Now is not the place. Here is not the time"
-"Auschwitz. NO Myschwitz"
-"Uh oh my future"
-"In-laws"
-"Sharp as a whistle" "hwhistle?"
-"Want another cracker baybeh?"
-"I'm not an African. Don't brand me"
-"DOOHHHH"
-"Fly like a kike"
-"You're raunchy"

<3

Went to Hollywood Knights. Got the autograph for crystal!
3 in 4 for tomorrow.
Go out with a bang!
holla

It is officially 4/20
When I started this.....it was 4/19.
OHHHH BAYBEHHHH

Saturday, April 19, 2008

Sayings of 4/18

"I'm so happy i could laugh at the word foot"
"Stop missing your mouth"
"Orion's belt"
"I'm going to pretend to be straight"
"I feel like im baking"
"Don't drop the soap teddy! It's bad for you!Especially in prison"
"Did i just explode? Do i look like einstein?"
"Take a square like you fought someone?"
"Seejew"
"Helen Keller directs Beethoven's symphony"
-cousin skeeter, lorraine UGGHHHH, meesa swan


Love you all!
Thaz what's gooooood gurrrrllll

Wednesday, April 16, 2008

Aggie



Here I come

Sunday, April 13, 2008

Some sayings of spring break '08

-"buick skylark"
-"Naiya gonna look at me and momma gonna know"
-"Naiya knows all"
-"She's so prepared. Look at rachel, karina." "NO"
-"Let me just get one last one in." "Don't masturbate while we're in here! It's rude"
-"that is one fucked up arm"
-"UCSC is a nice place to get killed and never be found"
-"I'm like eminem....i hate everyone equally"
-"If you were a boy, karina, then crystal would be yours"
-"Karina is a vagiant"
-"_ _ _ _ _ _ you can't wear jeans AND that knife in your stomach"
-"Zoo be the zebra. Be the weed"
-"Let's sing sound of music"
-"Chelsea lately said JEW"

On top of the world

OH so happy.
Feeling everything.
my mom won't stop tickling me.
rachel and teddy won't stop making me smile.
oh man.
caught up with chrissy, nadia, and linda =]
everything went right today.

not exactly a no, huh?
watching SNL right now.
just ate spaghetti
'spegetti' AHAHAHA

im looooove with a stipperrrr
i got you babe
in a highpitched-blackperson-voice

i get to see crystal pretty soon
and david helped me out at the beach yesterday
=]

ohhhhh man
<333

Saturday, April 12, 2008

Currently

talking to teddy and im VERY happy.
Lots of energy.
and listening to MOVE SHAKE DROP
CAPITAL LETTERS
missing bobo

ahhhhhhhhhhh

rachellllll don't fall asleep.
cheez its
i dont even know.
ahhhh
=]
=]

I couldnt even make it to my laptop last night.
And now i can't get off it.
I could feel my thoughts last night.
ohhhhh man this is all over the place.

happy 18th birthday chrissy =]
4/11/08!
loooooove you <33

Wednesday, April 9, 2008

WHAT TO CHOOSE?

hey karina,
at the age of 17 you're going to make one of the biggest decisions of your life.
Such decision could potentially decide your entire future.

THAT'S WHAT THEY SHOULD PUT IN THE EMAILS.

It's time for me to make a choice and grow up.


Graduation is just around the corner,
and for the first time, I'm sad about it.
Why, you ask?
Because it means a HUGE change.
It means growing up.
It means saying good bye.
I have to leave all the friends that I've built such strong ties with.
Let's just say that whatever college I'm going to, I'll be using the train A LOT to visit my loved ones.
Maybe it isn't sadness that I'm experiencing....maybe it's fear?
OH THE CHOICES WE MAKE
"Choices are the hinges of destiny. ~Pythagoras"

Sunday, April 6, 2008

rip it up!

all of it.
just give it away.
because i guess im not worth it.

SPRING BREAK!
this is the last spring break of my childhood.
i hope it's fabulous
Going to learn how to ride a bike tomorrow. AHH
"i bet you that you can't say fig newton without smiling"
oh, heidi =]

"your face wouldn't keep still!"

Friday, April 4, 2008

Men have the meatloaf....women have the oven

Sadies:



-danced sooooo much
-"i like big butts and i CANNOT lie"



Giraffe:



<3



Beach:



-1/2 & 1/2 & 1/2



I had a real conversation with Teddy that lasted more than 5 minutes.
Rachel and I might go to Davis together (segway?!)
Peenteen love




Meat chips will make me a millionaire.
Tears keep everything moist (esp elbows)
"Fight like a real man. Get on your knees and pray."

Sunday, March 30, 2008

Rejection

Rejection is a bitch.


I have to choose between UC Santa Cruz and UC Davis.
NO idea.
42-58

"hogbarns and goat facilities. Think I win."
"aggies"
"Shit ass fuck"
"shrivel up from all the sodium"

I need to learn how to ride a bike.
FAAAACK

Friday, March 28, 2008

Distance

It's said that distance makes the heart grow fonder.
I agree.....but this only pertains to physical distance.
Emotional distance just hurts.
We were close.
Now it's just dispersed.
AHH I'm such a baby.




On a lighter note:
"Don't hate the game, kill the player"
Me Two =]

Sunday, March 23, 2008

Helen Keller

ok not so much.
hookah with rach and ted last night

-You Indian people....always putting bombs in peoples' heads
-Can jesus make a kush SO good that even He Himself cannot smoke it?
-It's no contest. The light's not winning right now.
-There's like a sun in my head
-You oj simpson incriminator
-You can only type so much rachel...you can't keep up with me!
-Fugalee dugalee doo
-I wonder if justin's into that

Saturday, March 22, 2008

Indescribable



but this time in a good way

=]

Tuesday, March 18, 2008

Indescribable

and not in the good way.
I literally cannot tell you how I feel
because I'm not even exactly sure.
I'm falling back into some of my old habits (which isn't a good thing)
Too many tears in the past two weeks.
Too much stress.
Too much rejection.
Too much hate.
Not enough. There's never enough for me.
Always give. Never receive.


Replaced.
I'm sick and tired of being replaced.


Hope you feel better, Rachel.

On a brighter note:
RACHEL PLEASE!
please get me my captain crunch shake
pulled off SWEJ today
the panoramic picture is going to be grrrrrrrrreat
This never fails to make me smile:


Saturday, March 15, 2008

a little of both sides

I've got into UC Riverside, UC Santa Cruz, and UC Davis so far!!!!
=]

culture show was better than expected.
i sat with hersh, taniya, tanya, saati, aalap, sachin, phillip, linda, and rishi.
"it's like cheer but better"
"it's like cheer but worse"

3/14/08
-went to get my eyebrows done right after school
-teddy had nothing to do so he joined me and ariana on my endeavours
-jack in the box BAH
-nail salon: teddy couldn't handle the fumes so him and ariana went on a 30 minute walk
-"honey they always start out as friends"
-hair salon
  • "are they dating"
  • "right nut is rachel's, left is crystal's"
  • dyed my hair black again (but there's blue in there too)
  • didnt leave till 9 because the dye job took so long
-the party
-fun stuff












After saloni's, i went to allie's
and we all played truth or dare and ten fingers.
-lap dance, beans on chest, chips out of cleavage, tongue
AHHH
-cheating housewife? kinky


then off to rishi's
-taquitos, hookah, O, BFC, i can't believe sonam! hahah


and i think it's about time that rachel and crystal get back, yes?
FACK

Monday, March 10, 2008

ze typed word

not even going to lie;
i love my friends.
i don't know where i'd be without them.
so here's a toast to all those that have impacted my life....I'm who I am today because of all of you.

I save texts

Crystal
"I'm sleepy! I go beddy bye now :) i'll be dreaming of you ;) jk i dont remember my dreams :("
"you're so bad! I like my girls that way ;)"
"love you baby boo"
"I didn't do anything but i'll pretend like i did. :) of course nana anything for you"
"HAHA you said hokay so. i cracked up & danica looked at me funny"

Chrissy
"don't ever hesitate to think you can't talk to me or doubt my UNDYING love for you. (nohomo). goodnight Beh."
"I love you. I had fun today. And just everything. :-)"
"PLEASE DONT PLAY WITH ME..My PAPAH HEART WILL BLEED."
"best friend. Lemme walk you to class hahaha."
"I hope you feel better. Anyways just wanted to let you know I miss you & love you :-x"
"Iloveyou. And you're my favorite mohawk (: metwo"
"Thanks kar for having me over for the indian thing. I loved the dahl and subsies. Happy birthday. I love you. And no not in a lesbian way (:"
"Happy birthday bitchface. Love, bulldyke"

Rachel Feliza
"oh no ): be safe my sweet dahling. Keeping my fingers (and toes) crossed that you'll get home safely"
"Stop saying sorry or i'll whisper sweet nothings in your ear..."
"Oh my god THIS BITCH keeps singing in the jungle the lion sleeps tonight & i fall to the left on the hi notes & i keep sneezing and mrs morgan just called on me!"
"oh god. when i respond to people in class i do it super loudly and some words are louder than others"
"....wido master of disguise"
"sweet sweet energizer bunny (= god i creep myself out"
"Jaw jan laura boosh!! Pussy willow!"

Others
Greg: "ha I forgot! I love you"
Jocelyn: "Aww thanks :) you're the bestt"
"Get here faster indian! We miss you"
Mark: "goodnite. and i love u 4 always"
Linda: "I love you too karinaaa!"
Brittany Mosley Turner: "Hah i love you"
"BIG VAGINA! I miss yo stank ass already."
Marina: "Well you mean a lot to me, and i mean it. Hope u had a fun bday and didnt get too sick"
Rachel Dlugatch: "Happy birthday munchkin!"
"You're still five in my eyes!"



And waaaaaaay too many from nadia, hersh, parth, and tiffany <3

Sunday, March 2, 2008

let go

letting go.
interesting concept.
Personally I think letting go is easy.
It's holding on that's the difficult part.


Why do I always have to ask?
Why can't you offer something to me for once?

This weekend was great up until the last few hours.
-Went to the beach and just hung out with my friends.
-It was amazing. We all really needed it.
-Joyce Park eats anything and everything that you put in front of her.
-Indians have large lung capacities.
-Hookah is too fun.
-Teddy choi and I are going to be the new best friends because crystal has david and rachel has justin so IN YO FACE!
-Marina came over on saturday to cool off and just hang out
-took brandon to get his car but we had to wait for the mechanic so we ended up eating and hanging out at subway for 2 hours
-took brandon to his car today and went to the beach with rachel for a few hours (to make up for missing on friday ahaha)
-tweet tweet mo'fucka
-"love is the only thing that can be divided without being diminished"
-"Jargoc and Rachel <3 Balls"
-pictionary and ten fingers with rachel and teddy
-theme park. going all the way. nozzle. leapfrog. puddle of poop. up in the tree. kiss a black guy "i completely forgot about that one guy"
-it's only been a year and a half. damn. WHORE.
-he's ignoring me again.

-came back. everything fell apart.


I'm looking forward to Tuesday.
To pursue or not to pursue?

Sunday, February 24, 2008

battle

You thought we'd be fine
all these years gone by
now you're asking us to listen
well then tell us bout everything
no lies we're losing time

Cause this is a battle
and it's your final last call
it was a trial, you made a mistake, we know
but why aren't you sorry, why aren't you sorry, why?
this can be better, you can be happy, try!


You've got them on your side
and they wont change their minds
now it's over
and i'm feeling like we've missed out on everything
i just hope its worth the fight

Cause this is a battle
and its your final last call
it was a trial, you made a mistake, we know
but why aren't you sorry, why aren't you sorry, why?
this can be better, you can be happy, try!


Cause this is a battle
and its your final last call......

Friday, February 22, 2008

ughhh

that weird moaning noise i make is making a comeback!

Friday Feb 15th:
-birthday party for travis, brandon, big mike, and chris
-chris west and parth kept tackling me....i got owned:



-across the universe with rachel, justin, parth, aalap, and ariana

Saturday Feb 16th:
-blowing O's and eating baked goods

Sunday Feb 17th:
-me, chrissy, nadia, and linda at taco bell
-"how can there be a God with so much suffering"

Monday Feb 18th:
-homework and more homework
-greg and chrissy came over
-sex and the city

Wednesday Feb 20th:
-Stef's 18th birthday
-baked goods again
-"too much to the left"
-slept!

Thursday Feb 21st:
-pinkberry
-"here's your change Racheal"
-"You can't honestly say you don't want to see a duck sink"
-"wido master of diguise"

Went on the anatomy field trip today.
Saw a cadaver that died from liver cancer.
The doctor guy was in love with mr garcia "pound it here buddy"
"you're obnoxious and mean"
"am i really??"
AHAHAHAHA mo fucka
Oliver, greg, and jocelyn learned some stuff about my secret life
"Jocelyn and I are bff now"
"It's a girl thing"
Nadia played SO WELL in her game. I'm really proud of her. "#11 needs to CALM DOWN"
Walnut won again! woooo

On to the rest of the night!