Don't know what else to do or say

Wish I could hold you
Just for a little while, let me
I wish I could see you right now
But you're so far away
It's driving me crazy
I'm missing you baby
And the way you touch me
It's unlike anything I've ever felt before
That's how I know I am yours

I can't keep throwing myself at you.
Sometimes I need reciprocation :(
And no matter how much you don't give back...I still find these kinds of songs that remind me of you
because you DO make me all kinds of happy when you tell me how you feel.
I just want it more.

I still miss you more than anything.
But maybe you're just losing interest?
Eh maybe I'm being stupid.
But I seriously cannot ignore this feeling anymore.
I'm still in for the long haul but maybe you aren't.


It's like summertime always, like it's sunny out all day
Whenever you smile, sweeter than momma's homemade
I thought that every man was made the same way
But in a world of smoke and ashes boy, you are milk and honey

Jaysus I sound sad and desperate :/

I like skinny

Yeah well I like perfect.
HOW DO YOU RESPOND TO THAT?


Amazing nights this past weekend
but not so amazing days.
-Ukulele "Somewhere Over the Rainbow"
-Paul Blart Mall Cop and sweaty palms/broken chairs
-Deuces Wild and knocking out
-"Small stuff out, big stuff in"
-"Don't go back on Monday"
-"Let's forget time and responsibility"

Welcome to the world Adrianna Rose Lopez<3
You will always be loved by many.
12:52 am 1/18/09

You make me feel
That everything is going right
That I can go to sleep tonight

I'm falling even more into like with you

'Cause every time you hold me in your arms
I'm comfortable enough to feel your warmth


One month of sobriety on 1/19/09
ps on 12/19/08 "I like you too"


"Isn't that too intense and too soon to say for you two? You don't want to scare him"
"I just say how I feel and it pays off; there's no need to play games"

It’s the risk that I’m taking
I’m never gonna shut you out
Everywhere I’m looking now
I’m surrounded by your embrace
ps your arms are the only ones I want to feel around me
Heart murmurs and all (:


On another note......
I am DAMN lucky to have rachel feliza as my roommate and more importantly as my best friend.
I can tell that girl anything
"wuss yo name delicate?"


We Match- Gabe Bondoc
Bubbly- Colbie Cailat
Halo- Beyonce

MATRIX

"I'm psychic"
Stalin
Putin
Obama
Muhammed
Lebanon
Camel
Stab a cat

All these inside jokes with a certain Alex E. Valencia is what's getting me through Davis.

I realize the previous sentence is not grammatically correct.

I've only been here a week and the days keep dragging.

ANYWAYS everyone and their mom knows why I want to go home so badly.
I've pretty much spent my entire time back with Gina&Alex.
Last week has consisted of: switching schedules, hot cheetos (limon), late nights, body rolls, monsters, "secrets don't make friends", aerobic running, sore butts, fucking bikes, smoker lungs, crack addiction, notecard memory depletion, knowitall-isms, "coolest girl on the bench", "you're the only person I haven't said anything bad about....that's a first"
GALORE

Not Lost

Thanks for helping me sleep (:


"kash (11:49 PM): hmm to me you are"

Back in Davis and I want to go HOME

To see you when I wake up
Is a gift I didn't think could be real.
To know that you feel the same as I do
Is a three-fold, Utopian dream.

You do something to me that I can't explain.
So would I be out of line if I said "I miss you"?

I see your picture.
I smell your skin on
The empty pillow next to mine.
You have only been gone ten days,
But already I'm wasting away.
I know I'll see you again
Whether far or soon.
But I need you to know that I care,
And I miss you.




Holy crap it hasn't even been ten days
asdf I miss you

East (9:40:55 PM):

how'd you sleep last night, eh?

kash (9:41:44 PM):

i couldnt really...was jus' laying there...bored looking at my phone pics cuz i was bored...and couldn't stop thinking about what's her face

This is the first time I completely agree with my senior quote:
It's a strange thing, but when you are dreading something, and would give anything to slow down time, it has a disobliging habit of speeding up.

Take me away because I love how you make me feel


k i'm done