Rejection

Rejection is a bitch.


I have to choose between UC Santa Cruz and UC Davis.
NO idea.
42-58

"hogbarns and goat facilities. Think I win."
"aggies"
"Shit ass fuck"
"shrivel up from all the sodium"

I need to learn how to ride a bike.
FAAAACK

Distance

It's said that distance makes the heart grow fonder.
I agree.....but this only pertains to physical distance.
Emotional distance just hurts.
We were close.
Now it's just dispersed.
AHH I'm such a baby.




On a lighter note:
"Don't hate the game, kill the player"
Me Two =]

Helen Keller

ok not so much.
hookah with rach and ted last night

-You Indian people....always putting bombs in peoples' heads
-Can jesus make a kush SO good that even He Himself cannot smoke it?
-It's no contest. The light's not winning right now.
-There's like a sun in my head
-You oj simpson incriminator
-You can only type so much rachel...you can't keep up with me!
-Fugalee dugalee doo
-I wonder if justin's into that

Indescribable

but this time in a good way
=]

Indescribable

and not in the good way.
I literally cannot tell you how I feel
because I'm not even exactly sure.
I'm falling back into some of my old habits (which isn't a good thing)
Too many tears in the past two weeks.
Too much stress.
Too much rejection.
Too much hate.
Not enough. There's never enough for me.
Always give. Never receive.


Replaced.
I'm sick and tired of being replaced.


Hope you feel better, Rachel.

On a brighter note:
RACHEL PLEASE!
please get me my captain crunch shake
pulled off SWEJ today
the panoramic picture is going to be grrrrrrrrreat
This never fails to make me smile:

a little of both sides

I've got into UC Riverside, UC Santa Cruz, and UC Davis so far!!!!
=]

culture show was better than expected.
i sat with hersh, taniya, tanya, saati, aalap, sachin, phillip, linda, and rishi.
"it's like cheer but better"
"it's like cheer but worse"

3/14/08
-went to get my eyebrows done right after school
-teddy had nothing to do so he joined me and ariana on my endeavours
-jack in the box BAH
-nail salon: teddy couldn't handle the fumes so him and ariana went on a 30 minute walk
-"honey they always start out as friends"
-hair salon

• "are they dating"
• "right nut is rachel's, left is crystal's"
• dyed my hair black again (but there's blue in there too)
• didnt leave till 9 because the dye job took so long

-the party
-fun stuff












After saloni's, i went to allie's
and we all played truth or dare and ten fingers.
-lap dance, beans on chest, chips out of cleavage, tongue
AHHH
-cheating housewife? kinky


then off to rishi's
-taquitos, hookah, O, BFC, i can't believe sonam! hahah


and i think it's about time that rachel and crystal get back, yes?
FACK

ze typed word

not even going to lie;
i love my friends.
i don't know where i'd be without them.
so here's a toast to all those that have impacted my life....I'm who I am today because of all of you.

I save texts

Crystal
"I'm sleepy! I go beddy bye now :) i'll be dreaming of you ;) jk i dont remember my dreams :("
"you're so bad! I like my girls that way ;)"
"love you baby boo"
"I didn't do anything but i'll pretend like i did. :) of course nana anything for you"
"HAHA you said hokay so. i cracked up & danica looked at me funny"

Chrissy
"don't ever hesitate to think you can't talk to me or doubt my UNDYING love for you. (nohomo). goodnight Beh."
"I love you. I had fun today. And just everything. :-)"
"PLEASE DONT PLAY WITH ME..My PAPAH HEART WILL BLEED."
"best friend. Lemme walk you to class hahaha."
"I hope you feel better. Anyways just wanted to let you know I miss you & love you :-x"
"Iloveyou. And you're my favorite mohawk (: metwo"
"Thanks kar for having me over for the indian thing. I loved the dahl and subsies. Happy birthday. I love you. And no not in a lesbian way (:"
"Happy birthday bitchface. Love, bulldyke"

Rachel Feliza
"oh no ): be safe my sweet dahling. Keeping my fingers (and toes) crossed that you'll get home safely"
"Stop saying sorry or i'll whisper sweet nothings in your ear..."
"Oh my god THIS BITCH keeps singing in the jungle the lion sleeps tonight & i fall to the left on the hi notes & i keep sneezing and mrs morgan just called on me!"
"oh god. when i respond to people in class i do it super loudly and some words are louder than others"
"....wido master of disguise"
"sweet sweet energizer bunny (= god i creep myself out"
"Jaw jan laura boosh!! Pussy willow!"

Others
Greg: "ha I forgot! I love you"
Jocelyn: "Aww thanks :) you're the bestt"
"Get here faster indian! We miss you"
Mark: "goodnite. and i love u 4 always"
Linda: "I love you too karinaaa!"
Brittany Mosley Turner: "Hah i love you"
"BIG VAGINA! I miss yo stank ass already."
Marina: "Well you mean a lot to me, and i mean it. Hope u had a fun bday and didnt get too sick"
Rachel Dlugatch: "Happy birthday munchkin!"
"You're still five in my eyes!"


And waaaaaaay too many from nadia, hersh, parth, and tiffany <3

let go

letting go.
interesting concept.
Personally I think letting go is easy.
It's holding on that's the difficult part.


Why do I always have to ask?
Why can't you offer something to me for once?

This weekend was great up until the last few hours.
-Went to the beach and just hung out with my friends.
-It was amazing. We all really needed it.
-Joyce Park eats anything and everything that you put in front of her.
-Indians have large lung capacities.
-Hookah is too fun.
-Teddy choi and I are going to be the new best friends because crystal has david and rachel has justin so IN YO FACE!
-Marina came over on saturday to cool off and just hang out
-took brandon to get his car but we had to wait for the mechanic so we ended up eating and hanging out at subway for 2 hours
-took brandon to his car today and went to the beach with rachel for a few hours (to make up for missing on friday ahaha)
-tweet tweet mo'fucka
-"love is the only thing that can be divided without being diminished"
-"Jargoc and Rachel <3 Balls"
-pictionary and ten fingers with rachel and teddy
-theme park. going all the way. nozzle. leapfrog. puddle of poop. up in the tree. kiss a black guy "i completely forgot about that one guy"
-it's only been a year and a half. damn. WHORE.
-he's ignoring me again.

-came back. everything fell apart.


I'm looking forward to Tuesday.
To pursue or not to pursue?